INTOXICATED BY LIFE

There has been this whole different perspective to consciousness and life that hit me on December 17th last year..but I never really got time to put it into words and tell people about it..I tried once verbally but I ran out of words and could not communicate what I felt. Just the very thought of the idea gives me a high...and today I will finally try to say it out. It was triggered by the 4th chapter of 'One' written by Richard Bach. After I completed the chapter, I was literally jumping with joy and excitement because of the idea written. I felt it was direct and simple and anyone would understand it and get overwhelmed by it the same way I did. So I made a couple of my friends read the chapter. But to my surprise, neither of them looked even half as moved as me. So then I realised how the mind of every person reacts and perceives so differently. If they didn't get it, a lot more people would not. It is not a self-realised idea that dawned upon me, but then too I shou...

There has been this weird phenomenon happening to me from the past couple of months. It has always been a part of my nature but since the beginning of this year, the intensity has mushroomed. I am in this phase of questioning everything..every single thought, concept, ideology in the world..made by common man, philosophers, intellectuals and the society. Ideologies about moral values, career, money, the self, love, relationships, sex..everything I could possibly think of. I amn't able to label any of them as right or wrong, no conclusions on any subject, no unwavering opinion on any matter. Like I have mentioned before, I can't firmly say what my beliefs in life are.. But no, I am not embarrassed or regretful about what is happening. I feel it is happening for a reason, a good reason..where after questioning and looking at a matter from all possible perspectives, I will realise my true unbiased beliefs.. Until then, I will go on living in this turbulent yet much-to-learn ...

I have never really thought starting a blog..I did not find it something that would suit me..until now.. I am an observer..I constantly observe myself - my thoughts, my actions, my feelings and contemplate on them. Other than this, observing people, situations and nature is also something I tend to do. A recent situation/observation of mine made me realise that starting a blog would not be a bad idea after all. For gaining a good level of self-esteem and to appear confident socially and mingle with people freely, it is essential to believe in something. Believing in oneself is not really enough.One needs to believe in some kind of idea, thought or cause one represents/ fights for. What I have observed is, people come across an inspiring idea(s) and get so moved by it that communicating that idea to the rest of the world becomes their purpose of life. If not communicating it to the world, atleast practising it in their daily life becomes their identity. "What is it that you ...